Ahhhh The Mirror
Like a little girl i fidget and reconsider going to the mirror, i strilp slow mumbling to myself ....
And then,
i do it, i stand in front of the mirror with nothing on. i sway from one foot to the other not really looking at myself. It.. has started once again. Even though i hadn't looked in the mirror last week, the doubts came back. The fear came back tonight. i still have that feeling with me.. that feeling of being naked in front of strangers.
Why am i thinking about this now, ,well easy enough, it was brought up to me tonight. i made the comment that i wanted to cut my hair, and the come back response was that if i cut my hair, i would have nothing to hide my body with. *sighs*
my toenails are bare, as well as my finger nails. i no longer paint them that deep crimson color. At least they match...
Ok, now back to my task at hand. i have to look at myself, not even look at myself but accept who and what i am. One thing that i do not believe i have ever talked about are my cheeks. No..not those cheeks.... but my cheeks. i blush very easily lately. A taste of the forbidden fruit, shall W/we say. i am blushing looking at myself tonight. nice and soft pink cheeks. Oh how some people like to take advantage of it when someone is blushing. And yet it is very stimulating, arousing, exotic...it makes me feel good. Yes, i like my cheeks when i blush, i may not have cheek bones that show off apple cheeks, they are what they are... i've accepted it tonight.
Belly buttons, every play with them? No, i do not mean picking out the lint... *thinks eww*...There is something soft, and fun about circling the other of ones belly button. sensitive area.... just a tad. Makes me wonder what things people can do to ones belly button, not something i have given much thought about. ... Well there are belly shots (as in pouring a shot then drinking it)...thinks that make one go... hmmmmm..
Last thing, i LOVE my hands. They are soft, they like to feel things... sensitive, they then to express the way i feel. i may at times talk with my hands.....*like i did tonight*.....i love to give massages, although i doubt if i can give a long one anymore, a little out of practise. So many things *thinks about a certain paddle... just to hold how heavy it is*... *grins*
Time to get to bed.
Bonne Soiree a V/vous Tous....
And then,
i do it, i stand in front of the mirror with nothing on. i sway from one foot to the other not really looking at myself. It.. has started once again. Even though i hadn't looked in the mirror last week, the doubts came back. The fear came back tonight. i still have that feeling with me.. that feeling of being naked in front of strangers.
Why am i thinking about this now, ,well easy enough, it was brought up to me tonight. i made the comment that i wanted to cut my hair, and the come back response was that if i cut my hair, i would have nothing to hide my body with. *sighs*
my toenails are bare, as well as my finger nails. i no longer paint them that deep crimson color. At least they match...
Ok, now back to my task at hand. i have to look at myself, not even look at myself but accept who and what i am. One thing that i do not believe i have ever talked about are my cheeks. No..not those cheeks.... but my cheeks. i blush very easily lately. A taste of the forbidden fruit, shall W/we say. i am blushing looking at myself tonight. nice and soft pink cheeks. Oh how some people like to take advantage of it when someone is blushing. And yet it is very stimulating, arousing, exotic...it makes me feel good. Yes, i like my cheeks when i blush, i may not have cheek bones that show off apple cheeks, they are what they are... i've accepted it tonight.
Belly buttons, every play with them? No, i do not mean picking out the lint... *thinks eww*...There is something soft, and fun about circling the other of ones belly button. sensitive area.... just a tad. Makes me wonder what things people can do to ones belly button, not something i have given much thought about. ... Well there are belly shots (as in pouring a shot then drinking it)...thinks that make one go... hmmmmm..
Last thing, i LOVE my hands. They are soft, they like to feel things... sensitive, they then to express the way i feel. i may at times talk with my hands.....*like i did tonight*.....i love to give massages, although i doubt if i can give a long one anymore, a little out of practise. So many things *thinks about a certain paddle... just to hold how heavy it is*... *grins*
Time to get to bed.
Bonne Soiree a V/vous Tous....
posted by pup | 2:32 AM
1 Comments:
You goals are excellent I will support you in their achievement. Your cheeks are great when you blush and the paddle is a very nice weight you will love it.
Now about the hair I said that when you would be naked in a room with others to give you a mental security blanket how ever should you feel that you do not need one by all means cut your hair, oh is that the hair on top of your head or else where. So nice to have seen you again now is it pup or current. opps did you squirm there hmmm how nice.
Post a Comment
<< Home